My Sinfulness

I was freaking out pretty bad 2 weeks ago because i had one of my major assignment due and also had a mid semester. Both i did last minute studying and finishing up the assignment which i plan not to do but clearly my plan was just a plan wthout action!!

Long story short, for the assignment i didnt quite understand of what i had to do and even till the point of last minute i wasnt sure whether what i was doing was right or wrong. For the mid sem, it was for finance and i knew how to do the quetions and stuff but i wasnt sure which formula to apply to which questions and things like that plus a few other confusing things that took me a while to take in but anywayyy i did it and got my results back this week.

I was waiting for the results with a big hope that God would at least give me a pass and God was so gracious that he gave me more than what i was hoping to get. I still got a pass but it wasnt just a pass 50% but wayyy more than that :D:D
Now you think that i should be thankful for this rite but my sinful and ugly heart wants even more than what i was given. I wanted just a 50% pass and God gave me more, given a more than 50% pass now i wish god would have given me a credit.

I am reminded to be thankful of what God has given me in terms of my marks whether it would be a fail or pass or credit. I clearly didnt deserve that mark considering the effort i put into my study but yet God was so graciously allowing me to pass those assessments and helping me got through that week.
Father, i am sorry for the attitude i had towards your graciousness. You can clearly fail me but you chose to answer my prayer in allowing me to pass. I pray that you would help me to be thankful with my marks whatever it is and to not forget about your goodness and your sovereignty over my life. I ask the same for my brothers and sisters in Christ too, amen.