My Sinfulness

I was freaking out pretty bad 2 weeks ago because i had one of my major assignment due and also had a mid semester. Both i did last minute studying and finishing up the assignment which i plan not to do but clearly my plan was just a plan wthout action!!

Long story short, for the assignment i didnt quite understand of what i had to do and even till the point of last minute i wasnt sure whether what i was doing was right or wrong. For the mid sem, it was for finance and i knew how to do the quetions and stuff but i wasnt sure which formula to apply to which questions and things like that plus a few other confusing things that took me a while to take in but anywayyy i did it and got my results back this week.

I was waiting for the results with a big hope that God would at least give me a pass and God was so gracious that he gave me more than what i was hoping to get. I still got a pass but it wasnt just a pass 50% but wayyy more than that :D:D
Now you think that i should be thankful for this rite but my sinful and ugly heart wants even more than what i was given. I wanted just a 50% pass and God gave me more, given a more than 50% pass now i wish god would have given me a credit.

I am reminded to be thankful of what God has given me in terms of my marks whether it would be a fail or pass or credit. I clearly didnt deserve that mark considering the effort i put into my study but yet God was so graciously allowing me to pass those assessments and helping me got through that week.
Father, i am sorry for the attitude i had towards your graciousness. You can clearly fail me but you chose to answer my prayer in allowing me to pass. I pray that you would help me to be thankful with my marks whatever it is and to not forget about your goodness and your sovereignty over my life. I ask the same for my brothers and sisters in Christ too, amen.

Identity by Lecrae

I love this video as it is a great reminder that my identity is found in Christ not on temporary things like car, clothes or career.
It is very tempting at times to rely my identity on the stuff that is visible or if theyre not visible for example career, at least theyre like an intangible asset. (Intangible asset is an asset that is not visible but they still have value to the person/ business who ownes that like a brand name). :D:D But whether or not theyre visible, things like career, and fashion dont last forever.

Identity in Jesus or in temporary things??

Knowing name is important ???

I met a few people today and they said that God has a name and that it is important just as my name is impotant. I thought to myself "God has a name and that it is important?" They said that by knowing God's personal name, we may have life through it.

I said that it is not neccesarry for me that God has a more personal name than father or Lord. But they insist that God's name is important so i said " alrighht then if u wanna think that way but for me it is not as important and that what give me life is not the name but the cross."
I also insist that by calling God Lord or father, it is personal already so having the more personal name is not neccessary.I couldnt explain my reason properly to them :(:( oh well next time maybe if i bump into them again?? ;);)

As the day goes by, i thought through my reasons and making it clear in my head so then when i bump into them again, i would be able to explain it better :D:D

• Name is important as it is useful to differentiate one person and another. There would be noone who would call himself/herself God right?? so the more personal name of God is not important as there is one God anyway. Not like we need a more personal name for Jessica because there are many Jessicas out there (sorry for those whose name are Jessica) :D:D
• The people that i met insist that it is important to know God's personal name because it can gives us salvation. Does salvation comes from knowing his name or from the cross?? I think that salvation comes from the cross because without the cross we wouldn't know God and wouldn't even bother to know him. The cross is how i can call God father and he call me children. Hence, the cross is the centre not the name!

Living for Jesus ???

As christians we are ought to live for Jesus because we belong to him now and not the world. But what does it really mean to live for Jesus?? Does it mean that we have to do everything for him?? For example, sometimes when we help a friend with their homework, we just do it without even thinking that we're doing it for Jesus. Does it mean that we have to constantly have Jesus in our thoughts and not thinking about everything else because they are not godly?? Never talk about anything else but the bible??

This skit is a great example of what it means to live for Jesus. It does not neccessarily mean that we talk about nothing else but the bible or the sermon that we just listen to. "Jesus wants us to live in him so then we would understand who we are and what are we living for". It is easy to just go to church or pray and read the bible regularly but if doing those stuff has no meaning at all then whats the point of doing them?? The line "I want something deeper" strucked me!! Often doing christians stuff such as reading a bible doesnt really mean anything to me. It doesnt challenge me or anything like that because i am just reading it for the sake of reading it. As christians, we have to read the bible.

When Jesus open your heart box, would he find an empty box for all the things you said and do, or would he find a heart full of meanings because you understand what it means to live for Jesus??

Keep Persevering!!

The sermon at church last sunday had this analogy that i find very encouraging. I didnt remember the exact words by words but it goes something along this line,
" My parents put me in an orphanage and they promised that they would pick me up one day! Years go by and they still havent pick me up. My friends at the orpahnage tell me to not wait for my parents anymore because they will never pick me up. They tell me to put on my cute face and behave nicely and stuff so then i would be adopted by other parents and move on to a new life."


As christians living in this 21st century world, it is so easy to forget that Jesus will oneday come back and pick me up from this world. Many think that i am stupid following this Jesus guy who is very outdated. Many also says that he wll never come back as it has been more than 2000 years since he said he would so why bother following him and live my life for him.

                                        BUT

I love the picture that oneday he will pick me up and the waiting would be worth it!! and i am grateful that it is not just a picture but it will deffinitely happen. How can i be so certain with what i just said?? the bible say so (John 14:28a). He hasn't come yet because he is being patient waiting for more to come to him. The hope that I have in Jesus that he will pick me up oneday is not just a hope that has no future or uncertain!! Dearest brothers and sisters in Christ, Lets keep our eyes fixed on the day where Jesus will come back and pick us up. Lets not be discourage by the world because it is against us and hates us. My prayer is that we would be able to persevere and stand firm together in the midst of our life in this world.